Starting again! (sigh)

I've been having a lot of problems lately with motivation. Sigh. As soon as I finished my comps, I got lazy. I don't teach, and hence I am freer than most grad students to focus on my dissertation. But I feel so sluggish and things haven't moved much at all! Last week, I decided to meet my SV. We discussed about my topic and decided to scrap my prelims topic and start with something new altogether!! Sigh.

Although it seems like such a waste, I think it's for the best. My new topic seems more 'me', and although it is not my SV's primary area, she is such a fantastic theory guru she has already given me several useful pointers. Now I just have to come up with a two page summary of the new topic and submit it for her approval so that I won't waste more time delving into something that is not usable. 

I think it's very important to be a self-starter at this stage of your PhD. I've always been someone who can work without much prodding but it takes a lot of self-discipline. I am finding it so slow to start because I've been complacent after my comps.  A heavy dose of reality do wonders though: I only have two more years to finish everything and my scholarship is running out soon! So no more dallying for me! Wish me luck. (and willpower).